January 29, 2011

A Revelation

Dealing With Assange and the Secrets He Spilled

A good read about how Assange contacted news agencies, how the agencies went about the business of publishing the secrets and everything thereafter. 

January 28, 2011

Between These Pages...


"You’ve found me, you said, I don’t know why you keep looking."

I Skipped A Heartbeat...



Listen,
I never dreamed
I would learn to love you so.
You are as flawed
as my vision
As short tempered
as my breath.
Every time you say
you love me
I look for shelter.

But these matters are small.

Lying entranced
by your troubled life
within as without your arms
I am once again
Scholarly.
Studying a way
that is not mine.
Proof of evolution's
variegation.

You would choose
not to come back again,
you say.
Except perhaps
as rock or tree.

But listen, love. Though human,
that is what you are
already
to this student, absorbed.
Human tree and rock already,
to me.

--Alice Walker

Purple...

So there's this friend who insists on paying every time we go out for dinner or movies or whatever, and I have to literally fight with him for him to accept money***. And the other day, some 10 of us were sitting in an expensive cafe for some late night snacks. The bill came to a cool 7k, and like always, we started going through the bill to see who owed what. But this guy just went ahead and paid it all! The first thing that went through my mind was, "Is he mad?" and then second thing, "I would never marry this guy. He's so careless with his money! Who pays 7k just like that?" It's not that one can't spend money on one's friends, but those were all my friends! He didn't know anyone anyway! And paying for strangers?

I just found it funny how your perspectives change as you grow up. At one point, perhaps, I would have thought the gesture sweet. Now I think, stupid.

***I don't mind being pampered, but only if I am dating the guy. Otherwise, I can pay my own bills, thank you.

*****
I also think the few days/months before a guy gets married are the best times for him to openly flirt with other girls without being lynched. The to-be wife is busy preparing for the wedding, so she's not going to be bothered with what the guy does 24/7, and the guy? Well, everyone knows he's getting married in a few days, so well, you see, other girls are "safe" from him. He can flirt and hit on you and end it all with, "Hey I was just kidding, I am getting married to the love of my life in a few days after all!" And add an enthusiastic, "I can't wait for the day!" for extra safety. And also the girl can not complain about his flirtatious ways cause she'll be accused of "thinking too much" if she does. "He's a committed guy now." And so you have to put up with lingerie shopping with these soon-to-be-married guy friends and shop for Valentine's day for their sweet-to-be-wives :| Can anything be more torturous?

Toothpaste For Breakfast...

She had the potential to be a brilliant actress, but she could never be. For she was way too self-conscious to be somebody else in public. In private though, it was a whole different story. So many, so many wonderful characters stuffed inside one person. A siren today, a saint tomorrow. A selfish, unforgiving woman today, a loving caring mother tomorrow. Unlike an onion, the more you peeled, the more there was to her. Her ability to transform herself into someone totally contrasting, that too with the ease of a chameleon, was truly magical. She could be so much more, Austin thought. He never understood why she had let such talent go to waste.

*****
Never black or white. Never the villain and never quite the hero. Always grey. Always. 

****
Her goodness, Ray thought, was her undoing. She cursed herself often, but that's all she could do. Goodness was in her blood and try as she could, her tears would not wash it away. 

*****
She was crying today. Again. 

"Why can't he see how much I love him? Why can't he see it? Why does he behave in such a fashion! I don't understand Doris! I had just called to tell him about, you know, about this new job. And he yelled at me."

"Why don't you see? He wants someone else. Someone you are not. You're too simple for him." 

"What do you mean? What should I be then?"

"See, that's the problem. You don't understand him Nina. He wants a woman, not a child. You have to stop needing him first. Only then will he come to you."

"That's not possible. I can't not need him. I live only for him."

"I know", Doris said. 

*****
In the later years he was a different man. So completely different from the one she knew from many many moons ago, that it thoroughly confused her. Was the one she knew once-upon-a-time, the real him? Or the one that stood in front of her now? Maybe she never really knew him. Or perhaps this was his hidden side she thought, now emerged. But why, now?

Time loved a good laugh as much as God did. Perhaps they were buddies, she thought. Each playfully competing with the other to script the next funny tale. God, poor guy, always blamed and cursed, was infact quite predictable. You do good, you get good. You do bad, you get bad. Infact, God was an easy guy. You could bribe him with cows and sweets, and he would do your bidding. Time, impish, loved playing pranks. With Time, anything was possible.

What God couldn't do, Time did with much cleverness. 

And what wouldn't Time do? He could turn the King into the court Jester and as easily place the Jester in the king's throne. Only Time could reveal that the shiny crown was nothing but a rusted piece of scrap. 

Oh yes, Time was a funny guy. And that man who stood in front of her, he was a bad joke. 

January 27, 2011

Morning Dew...

You come to me as the night blossoms into a diamond beauty, and you take my hands in your hands and tell me that the moon looks beautiful in my eyes today, not so forlorn after all. You smile at me and the rhythm of knots in my stomach drowns even the melody the waves create. You brush my shoulders and the night shivers. Your hands sink into my hair and the moon blushes and hides behind the clouds. Wrapped in the folds of the night we sink into the soft cool sand and unlock the secrets the night hides from us. In your arms, I find my world.

But as the night fog lifts, you disappear as mysteriously as you came. And I am left to wonder if you were perhaps just a dream.

She Will Be Loved...



Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls